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Tuesday, 16 December 2008

  • A Bouyant Optimism (Part One): Through the Storm

    I know why we do it.  At least, I know why I do it.  In the end the desire to be right draws and calls out in it's siren's voice and intoxicates the mind until one wakes in a sea of realism and despair.  Falsity dawns the gown of truth and reveals that to be right one must see the world as it is not as it might be.  And that first bite of the fruit seems sweet, but it turns sour.  The taste does not leave the mouth and taints the world.  We're still tasting that fruit.  But, our eyes were opened, and we did see.  Isn't that what we wanted?

    The cynics and pessimists might see the way things are, but it is the optimists and the hopeful that change the world.  A walk with Jesus is almost crazy and delusional until you're in the middle of it.  It's at that point that the layers of the lie peel away.  A drive with Jesus is like the same.  It's an adventure.  I did not know what I was getting into.  It was just a visit to see some friends and go to a wedding.  And in a sense that was all it was.  But that would not be telling the story.  That would be falling asleep.  Instead it is time to embrace the cold, hard truth.  And the truth is this.  It's scary to step out of the boat and onto the waves.  It's terribly frightening almost to the point of paralysis to embrace the unknown.  But I must.  The ship is sinking.  The ship was dashed onto the rocks of the sirens, and all would be lost except for this fact.  God is calling me onto the waves, away from the lie and the fake fruit and onto the same waves that are tearing the ship to shreds.  Following Jesus is a buoyant optimism that defies reason and forges a new reality.  Or as someone much smarter put it, "And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us" (Paul to the Roman Church, Romans 5:5).

    So I drove all night through a storm.  In the car with me was Josiah Wilcox.  I know enough to not travel alone, if I can help it.  Not on trips longer than 9 hours at least.  And we drove through the storm.  Not just through as in coming out the other side.  No, we drove into the storm and chased it all the way up the coast.  Ice, snow, rain terrible conditions all testing the endurance of my car and our sanity. But there was someone there.  Jesus brought us through the storm safely, even if the tires left the road every once in awhile.  Because of someone to sing with and talk to and give the wheel over to for a couple of hours we made it through.  Perhaps the great takeaway is to have someone with you at all times.  Life requires a buddy system.  How else will we make it?  The defiant and buoyant optimism that comes from hope keeps us from sinking and helps us look around and see that we're all in the same boat (or at least we were).

Sunday, 14 September 2008

Thursday, 04 September 2008

  • I hope.

    I hope.

    By saying I hope, I'm not saying I desire for something.  I do desire something.  I desire life to the fullest.  But the grave itself is grasping at me. 

    But if I gave up my whole self to God, which I did, there is nothing left for death to claim.  I think that's what is meant when the writers of the New Testament talk aobut dying to self, being hidden with God, Christ in us the hope of glory...  At least that is part of what they might be talking about. 

    Hope is stronger than a sense of desire.  Hope leads us, leads me, to action.  I hope that Christ rescues me fully, and He will, He is doing so.

    This hope leads to life.

Saturday, 30 August 2008

  • Until we come to Jerusalem...

    Gardening is one of the most fulfilling and mysterious things a person can do.  How so much grows from a tiny seed is incredible.  I was pulling weeds in the garden today, digging deep to the roots of the tangled mess of Bermuda grass that sprawled all over the flowerbed. 

    I started thinking about our first ancestor, Adam.  He was a gardener too.  He was a naked gardener, well at least for the first part of his life.  My hands are all cut up from the roots of weeds and the thorns of roses.  His weren't.  I was digging and pulling and wiping sweat of my face which stung my eyes, plus I stunk.  None of that was his problem.  I wonder what it was like being a naked gardener, walking around naming any living thing you came across and eating anything you could pluck from a tree.  I imagine him juggling a bunch of oranges in front of a pair of zebras and giraffes beside a tropical waterfall.  He probably juggled.  He had enough time to learn.  The wind blowing the mist by as the sound of the falls barely covers the roar of his laugh because he finally perfected his trick.  The zebras, of course, don't care zebras are notoriously hard to entertain.  And the giraffes don't exatly understand what's going on.  God is right there laughing along.  He gets how neat of a trick juggling oranges is. 

    It was all ruined though.  There are weeds and thorns.  Adam and Eve were deceived, and I feel more sorry for them than upset.  The hurt of sin and death now go as deep and are as tangled as Bermuda grass in a lovely garden.  It's tragic really.

    We dug up all the weeds.  We set down mulch and built a small wall of stone between the grass and mulch so the weeds can't creep in again.  (Here you can draw your own analogies of rule making or spiritual practices or whatever really.)

    I also realized that I'd like to live in a city, not a suburb with the manicured lawns.  I'd still have a garden in the city.  I'd grow vegetables in my window sill or on the roof.  I'd probably need to work harder to keep it.  But maybe there would be less weeds growing wild.  I'd like a community garden.  Where we all as neighbors in a building come together to take back our part of the city.  It's very adventurous, very Kingdom-like. 

    I wonder some days lately if it's all just a dream.  It's certainly not the American dream.  It's too downwardly mobile: to love the outcast so much to become an outcast.  Maybe it is too romantic to believe in or work towards.

    Or maybe it's worth it.  Bringing a little piece of heaven to earth.  Reclaiming a part of our world for Jesus like one reclaims a flower bed from weeds.  Your Kingdom come, and Your will be done on earth as it is in heaven. 

    I'll hold onto that dream a little longer.  I'll work towards it.  Working hard like everything else in this (metaphorical and literal) weed-filled world.  Maybe I will have a community garden in a city.  Maybe it will bring back an echo of the Garden until we come to the City.

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  • Being a disciple of Jesus isn't just some intellectual exersise for some elite. Being a disciple involves seeing the work of God in everyday life. This is just some reflections of how God is working in my life. This journey was meant to be shared. I look forward to hearing from you too. My name is Shane.

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